Former JOURNEY singer Steve Perry spoke to the KQRS radio station about his decision to step away from the music business in the late nineties. “I was so fortunate to be in the band JOURNEY,” he said (hear audio below). “It was a time of my life that I would not… I would do it again in a minute; I really would. If I could go back and do that all again, I’d do it again. But things move on. And we were at a point, I think, and I certainly will speak for myself, [I] was at a point where I was just burned out. And my love for music, [which had] saved my life, had left me, and I was very frightened about that. I was feeling very uncomfortable with music and [I had] PTSD kind of feelings: ‘What is happening here?’ That, coupled with — to be honest with you — some extra behaviors that started to show up to fill that… But I think when your love for something starts to wane, you’re gonna start to fill that gap with something that’s probably not good for you. You put that together, and it just started to crash. And so I knew in my heart, intuitively, that I needed to just do one thing, and it’s not gonna be a popular thing: ‘I just need to stop.’ And so I did — I just stopped. And everybody went, ‘What’s going on?’ ‘I need to stop.’ And so I did.”
He continued: “I just landed in my life and tried forever to make that just be enough. That was tough, because every night you get people loving you, you get adoration, you get so much love from people when you’re performing and they love your music, walking away from that is insane, my mind said. But I knew if I started using external assistance to keep going, I’m gonna end up being another one of those statistics that we know exist with people who are successful in this business, or any business. So I had to just stop and let where I am hitting the ground be enough.”
“Traces”, Perry‘s first solo album in nearly a quarter century, is due out everywhere October 5 via Fantasy Records, a division of Concord Music Group, Inc. It is a rousing start to the most personal and emotionally powerful work yet from this legendary singer-songwriter who earned global fame as the voice of JOURNEY before going on to significant solo success as well.
By any standard, “Traces” is an inspired and expansive work that has indeed been a long time coming. Yet in a very real way, “Traces” marks an extraordinary and welcome return to form that Steve Perry himself long assumed he would never make. Big and bold, yet intimate and revealing, “Traces” is not the sound of a veteran rock star dipping his toe back in the pool, but rather an artist who has reconnected with his music in a new way that surprised even Perry himself.
“For a long time, I could barely even listen to music,” Perry recalled. “My last show with JOURNEY was in February of 1987. Then one day, it hit me that I couldn’t do this anymore. I felt as if I had to jump off this merry-go-round — this big beautiful mothership that we had all worked so hard together to build.”
The JOURNEY mothership proved to be one of the most highflying, influential and successful vehicles in rock history, as reflected by the band’s induction into the Rock And Roll Hall of Fame in April 2017. Perry made a rare public appearance at the ceremony to graciously thank his bandmates and their fans. “I thank you so much for all the music we’ve written and recorded together,” Perry said that night in Brooklyn. “It will be forever in my heart.” The classic hits Perry sang and wrote with JOURNEY — including “Open Arms”, “Separate Ways (World’s Apart)”, “Lights”, “Who’s Cryin’ Now”, “Any Way You Want It” and the famously enduring “Don’t Stop Believin'”, to name just a few — remain wildly popular around the world to this day.
Yet, even with that long legacy of success, “Traces” continues a musical story that goes back even further than Perry‘s transformative time with JOURNEY. Since his childhood growing up in California’s San Joaquin Valley, Perry‘s love of music had become the driving passion of his life, ultimately taking him to remarkable heights, both artistically and professionally. But instinctively, Perry knew the time had come to try another path in his life’s journey.
Paradoxically and — to many, perhaps inexplicably — Steve Perry, one of the defining voices of our times, had himself stopped believing. And so, he did the only thing he thought he honestly could do. “I stopped singing,” Perry explained, “and I started living life on its own terms.”
And that — it appeared for the longest time – might have simply been that. It took the love and the loss of one extraordinary woman to fully open up Perry‘s heart to the idea of once again sharing the music that was in his heart.
In 2011, through his good friend, film director Patty Jenkins — who famously featured JOURNEY‘s “Don’t Stop Believin'” in her acclaimed 2003 film “Monster” — Perry met Kellie Nash, a PhD in psychology who was bravely battling breast cancer. Over the next few years, Perry‘s life was forever changed by the experience of falling deeply in love. “I’ve had a few relationships, and they all changed my life,” Perry explained. “But when I met Kellie, it was the next level of change that was required for me to have a complete heart. It’s as if sometimes a heart isn’t complete until it’s truly broken.”
When Nash passed in 2012, Perry was indeed heartbroken, ultimately though, he was moved to fulfill a promise he had made to her. “When Kellie was very ill, she made me promise not to keep isolating myself anymore,” Perry remembered. “Kellie taught me many things in our time together, but one of them was that it really is better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all.”
Gradually, Perry began to revisit early sketches of songs, some of which he had shared with Kellie, and some, like standout tracks “Most Of All” and “In The Rain” that were written before they had ever met — but somehow seemed to foretell their love story and its profound impact on his life.
“This was not about seeking closure or moving on, but about taking it all with me, about feeling it all, and expressing it all in hopes that it might move and help other people too,” Perry explained. “She told me one night, ‘If something happens to me, promise me that you won’t go back into isolation because I feel that it would make this all for naught.’ In the years after her passing, that conversation never left me, and my love for music slowly returned.
Working in his studio in California, Perry and his engineer and co-producer Thom Flowers eventually got to work. “We started going through my demos — these musical traces that were left behind, and slowly decided to bring a remarkable group of musicians together.” Here too, Perry made the artistic choice not to isolate himself any longer.
“At first, I sketched some of this material with electronics in my computer, but eventually we needed to keep these songs real,” Perry explained. “That meant letting musicians come in and bring their hearts and souls to this music. Every musician on this album made a musical and emotional contribution to what it’s become. Vinnie Colaiuta, as one example, doesn’t just play drums — he plays music; he just so happens to be playing drums when he does it. Everybody who played or co-wrote these songs with me helped make this album possible.”
Remarkably, Steve Perry‘s iconic voice, with time and experience, has never sounded more soulful. “I’ve always considered my voice a work in progress,” Perry said with a warm laugh. Singing can be a consistent unpredictable situation. The reason is your instrument isn’t fingers on strings, or fingers on keys or drumsticks in your hands. Your instrument is you.”
The album’s lead track, “No Erasin'”, is a kind of an emotional homecoming. “That song is about going to a class reunion in the farm community where I was raised,” Perry explained. “Literally speaking, it’s about coming back into contact with someone you haven’t seen in a long time in a location where you used to hang out and make out, but metaphorically, it’s about the audiences that I’ve not seen in years, and being in the back seat of their car once again.”
Another of “Traces”‘ standouts, “Most Of All”, was co-written with Randy Goodrum — with whom Perry had penned “Oh Sherrie” and “Foolish Heart”, among other songs, on his successful first solo album, 1984’s “Street Talk”. “‘Most Of All’ was written two or three years before I met Kellie,” Perry said. “Because it’s about losing someone you truly loved, I never played the demo for her. In our hearts, we thought the power of our love might be the thing that turned on her immune system to help in that quest. So, I was afraid to bring that song’s sad energy into our world. As a result, she never heard this song. That’s when it hit me; the song was about Kellie even before I ever met her. And it’s definitely about her now.”
The soulful “No More Cryin'” — co-written by Perry and Dan Wilson, formerly of SEMISONIC and known for his work with Adele, among others and featuring Booker T. Jones on Hammond organ — is “a tough one to talk too much about. I can only tell you that there are overtones on that one about isolation and my past, though it somehow turns into a love song eventually. But if someone hurts you, there usually is some love involved. At the last minute, Thom found that song on one of my drives, and pushed for us to go back and work on it. It’s now one of my favorites.”
Artfully written and sequenced, “Traces” reflects a hard-earned sense of survival, a victory over the toll time takes on us all. “Under neon lights, we claim this town/No one can take us down,” Perry sings on “We’re Still Here”. Co-written with Brian West and featuring a soaring string arrangement by David Campbell and Perry, “We’re Still Here” was inspired by the singer’s experience of walking the streets of Hollywood and feeling a sense of connection and solidarity with a whole new generation running wild on the same streets that he once had.
Throughout the album, Perry balances life’s inevitable losses with its enduring sense of hope and possibility. For instance, on the propulsive “Sun Shines Gray” — which Perry co-wrote with John 5 and Thom Flowers — Perry movingly sings, “Even though/Our love was lost somehow, some way I know in my heart/We’ll love again, and won’t let go.”
Perry is looking forward to performing his music live, something he stopped doing years ago. “One of the groups that reminded me of my love of music is THE EELS,” he said. “E from THE EELS kept asking me to sing with him for an encore. So, when I finally walked onstage with him, after like 25 years, I was nervous. I did not know what my voice would or would not do. But the voice I was worried about not showing up — well, it showed up. Because that audience wanted me to go and get that voice for them. And that’s when it hit me — I need the audience to go and get it for. I can’t find that voice all by myself.”
“I would not come back to it now unless I could be absolutely emotionally honest about the music,” Perry explained. “I’m not trying to top what I’ve done in the past, or better anyone or anything. That stuff doesn’t matter to me now. In a way, it’s this simple: when I had something to say again, I said it. All I’m trying to do now is make music that really matters to me and I hope maybe will really matter to other people too.”
Photo credit: Myriam Santos